Confused

First i want to apologize for not updating, alot things have been going on and i havent had a chance to go online here. 

lately ive been very confused i sometimes just stop and ask myself did i make the right choices in life? or am i missing something because sometimes it just feels like that. i have been thru alot over the years and i donbt know how much more i can take i almost feel as if i have to defend myself sometime.